Random Thoughts & Hangups!!

My mind has been racing this morning about all sorts of stuff so what to do about it??? BLOG!

I am just going to ramble on so just try to keep up.

Erin had her melt down last night right??? Well I have to admit that I am kind of hard on her at times and not so much at other times, I hope I am not the only one that can admit this. Okay, like I said last night Erin is soft spoken, will not stand up for herself, and takes alot of crap from her sisters. I do take up for her alot when it comes to her sisters and such, but last night I just sort of lost it. She was in her room crying about something that she did not need to be crying about and I went and tried to talk to her about it and she would just not stop crying, she gets very embarrassed easily and upset if she thinks people are laughing at her and such, well Brittany and I were laughing, but not at her but at what she did it was funny and thought she would think that too. Well, lets just say she did not think it was funny, long story short I basically told her to suck it up and stop crying. I know that sounds horrible, but I had just had it at that point. I dont believe in kids acting like crazy people, but there comes a point when you have to stand up for yourself, get some tough skin and deal with things and last night it was Erins turn. I guess what I am getting at is I am tired of Erin thinking she can just crawl inside herself and not stand up for herself or just deal with situations like last night. I dont want her to be a speed bump in life that everyone can just run over! Am I being too hard on her???

We all know I have had a hangup about this True Love crap, well I am over it and had alot of revelations about it. First, dont watch love movies, they are all fake as all get out. That stuff does not happen in real life. Your husband does not push your hair out of your face and kiss you or hug you like he has met you for the first time everytime he sees you. That just does not happen.

I also wanted to let you all know that Brittany is captain of Majorettes along with another girl, there are 2 captains now. I have to say after all the drama that unfolded during the beginning of the year everything has came out good in the end. Brittany had to deal with alot of crap that was uncalled for so I am so happy everything worked out for her. Like I said before what comes around goes around and when you treat people like crap that WILL come back to get you, so needless to say with all of that said Brittany now shares the role of Captain!!!

Remember that diet I was on??? I just wanted you to be aware of the fact that it lasted for like 4 days!!! Sorry for those of you that are trying to watch what you eat and such but, that diet stuff is just not for me! I am making some changes in my life that I will Blog about later, but I am working my way to a better way of life! All I have to say is that diet stuff is for the birds and so is the bird food!! So as I am on my way to eat a sausage McGriddle- diets suck, but for those of you that can do it- Way to go, and good luck!

Baby Daddy #1- Drama!!!!! Is the first thing that comes to mind. This is a whole blog in itself, but lets just say I am really worried about weather or not he will come through with a vehicle for Brittany in December. I just dont know what we will do if he does not buy her one and how in the world are we going to afford 2 vehicles within 15 months of eachother????? That is stressing me out alot. Because Brittany WILL have a car when she turns 16, there are no IF's, AND's, or But's about that one!! I just have not quite figured out how we will do it just yet. :)

Okay, I think I have what is running through my mind at the moment out. So I am going to go now and will write about more stupid random stuff later!!!