Thursday, September 25, 2008

PSYCHO !!

That is my word for the moment or the evening. I think I have officially lost my ever loving mind. I have for awhile now felt real moody, easily agitated, depressed, wanting to cry all the time. Well, lets just say tonight I finally let it all out, in crying I mean. I know all of this is a little personal, however all of you that read my blog I really don't care if you know, we are all mostly females and I am hoping someone can relate to me and maybe give me some advice.

I don't know why I feel this way, I have no idea what makes me sad one minute and happy the next. I can be fine and then someone will say something and I want to cry. Well, I have been real good about keeping the crying in but tonight there was no more keeping it in. I went to the bathroom, took a long bath and just cried and cried, for what???? IDK! That is the problem, I have no freakin idea why I am like this. I finally decided yesterday to make an appt. with the doctor to maybe get some medication or something. I have to have something soon, I feel like a basket case that is about to tip over all the time.

So I have just spilled my guts to all of you and maybe in hopes of someone being able to relate or tell me that maybe I am not crazy. Maybe I am crazy and all I need is some real good medication to fix it all. I know Chance is about ready to pack his bags and hit the road, he does not know if I am coming or going. I honestly think he is real scarred right now. Although him being scarred of me maybe a good thing it may work in my advantage, ha ha :)

Anyways, I am going to go now, I have a very busy weekend ahead of me and it all starts tomorrow at lunch, Brittany's pep rally, then homecoming game. Thats just tomarrow, Saturday is way CRAZY.......Busy, Busy, Busy!

3 comments:

Teresa said...

I know why your crying all of the time. Remember that big secret you have been working on and haven't announceed yet (no she's not PG)! That's GOT to be it! I am glad you made an appt. Tell Dr stewart you want Cymbalta!!! 30 mg per day should do it!

Teresa said...

Oh and we are like babies, sometimes we just need to cry it out! And Chance isn't going anywhere, he loves you. I think he needs to see you vulnerable!

Trina said...

I have been there where you have been. I don't pretend to know what is going on in your life but if you just need to someone on the other end to cry to then call me. No questions asked.